I've had a really hard time coming up with the appropriate way to announce this but
I'm going back to camp!!!!
There are so many different ways to say it and so many things I want to say. I can't believe I didn't think of this blog post earlier.
The decision didn't come easily some would say but in my mind it was a very simple decision. I deliberated and asked for everyone's opinion until I realized, with some friend's help, that I was just waiting for someone, anyone's approval. It's a personality fault of mine that I need constant and reassuring approval, not only from the people I love but from people I don't know and don't care about. It's the one thing I have to work at every day. Well anyways, I digress, I asked and talked and thought and realized I was annoying even myself. One of my most special and thoughtful friends (looking at you Elisa) constantly reminded me that I'm the only one that needs to be happy with my decision. Decide for myself and everyone else can just deal with it.
The decision was made in the most clique way but I'm going to say it anyway (I'm looking at you Lauren, don't judge me). I decided that the next time I felt strongly one way or the other my choice would be clear. I was with a bunch of friends talking and laughing and I walked into a room by myself to get something and I realized at that moment I wanted to be at camp more than anything. I was happy too. I wasn't upset with my day or bored with my job, I just wanted to be at camp.
So there it was, decision made. I emailed the camp directors the next day. I knew I wanted to be at camp but I wasn't going to waste my time, I was still practical ( or at least I like to think I am). I asked if there was a cooking or sewing instructor position still available and lucky as I am there was a spot as a cooking instructor made just for me. I get to work with my favorite friend Natasha and another counselor named Rachel that we get to meet in 7 days.
I leave in 7 days and I'm so unprepared as far as packing and everything I'm leaving behind but Natasha and I have been talking about wanting to just be at camp for about..... since I had my contract 2 months ago so emotionally, I'm there. I know that most people don't understand it and they never will. I'm fine with that. I understand that and so do all my favorite Kippy girls.
and remember,
it's not goodbye, it's see you later
I KNEW IT! i knew it :)
